I can't believe that I had the girls six months ago today. It was the scariest, happiest day of my life. So much has changed over the last six months. Marc & I have changed so much. We have had so many blessings, but immense heartache as well.
Many people have said that they don't know how we made it through all of this. Some have told me that "God won't give you more than you can handle." I kind of disagree with that one. I know that by myself, I wouldn't have been able to get through the last six months. At the time the girls were born, all I could see was how beautiful & strong our daughters were. I focused on the positives. Other than being micro-preemies, they were healthy. Now, I can't even look at some of the pictures from when they were in the hospital. All I can see are ventilators, IV's, & feeding tubes. No baby should ever have to fight that hard just to live. Marleigh has some scars on her hands from IVs, & a light scar on her cheek from where the tape was for her vent. I tear up just thinking about it. Then our worst nightmare happened. Natalie Grace became an angel in my arms. That's when I know God was carrying us. We had to get up the very next day, & go right back into the NICU to be there for Marleigh. That was probably one of the hardest days. But, Marleigh needed her parents. She needed our love & support. I relied heavily on my faith. Looking back, I know it is what got us through. I think instead the saying should be, "God won't give you more than HE can handle."
I look at the beautiful little girl laying in her crib sleeping so peacefully. She is so amazing & incredibly strong. She truly is a miracle & I thank God everyday for her. She has overcome so much. Two different infections, five blood transfusions, MRSA, a hole in her heart, an allergy to milk, seizure diagnosis. I hope she knows how proud of her we are & how much she is loved!
My sister gave me a sister daily calendar that has sayings everyday. I really like today's:
"One's sister is part of one's essential self, an eternal presence of one's heart and soul and memory." -Susan Cabill
You and Marc are amazing people. Marleigh and Natalie sure are lucky girls to have amazing parents. You brought tears to my eyes yet again. Your faith has really inspired me. I'm so happy that Miss Marleigh is so strong. I continue to pray for all of you for continued strength, healing, and comfort.
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine what you and Marc have gone through with the birth of your girls. You're so positive, and it's definitely reminded me to be thankful for the blessings in my life.
ReplyDeleteOh Sarah, I wish I was there just to hug you--or for you to hug me since I'm crying now! :) I'm so proud of you guys for keeping your faith--so many people turn away when they need Him the most. I don't know how people who don't believe cope when bad things happen. I'm so proud of Marleigh and Natalie too--what little troopers! Always remember that with every milestone Marleigh reaches, Natalie is there too, never far from all of you. We love you!
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